I met Magali through my boss Christophe. She's a lovely lady who owns a petite lingerie brand called Timpa, designed for small-busted girls.
I visited her beautiful show room on a cloudy Tuesday afternoon. She told me she read my latest post on challenging small boobs insecurities, and was wondering if I'm interested in collaborating with her because I'm definitely a "Timpa girl". To be honest, I was flattered and nervous at the same time. On one hand, I'm constantly looking for interesting topics to write, and this seems perfect. On the other hand, I don't know if my 5-people readership ( if you are one of them, thank you!) can be of any help to her brand, and a lingerie photoshoot just sounded... well, daunting.
Worries aside, I instantly fell in love after trying on these Timpa bras. I don't remember when was the last time I wore a bra without the awkward gaps between my boobs and the fabric. These bras hug my breasts perfectly. They also come in so many colors, almost too fun to be true. My only concern though was that they are basically see-through. Acknowledging my concern, Magali humorously said: "Well you know everybody has nipples. Plus I'm french, so..." I laughed, totally loved the way she addressed this. "Ok, I won't let you down." I said to her and decided to take on the challenge.
That day I went home and told Kenny that I wanted to make this a project with a concept. My goal is to create something ratchet but not trashy, artsy with vintage vibe. I've also been obsessed wth Filthy Mouth Creative lately, and got some great inspirations from Brooke Olimpieri's rad and old-school photography style.
The shoot was not easy. After all I'm wearing something very very revealing. And unlike the 90s cropped top in Brooke's photos, pure lingerie brings out a way more sexual vibe. I used props to create some stories (such as stealing champagne in the middle of the night or popping bubble gum...etc.)so it can be dynamic instead of just a girl exposing herself. I realize posing in lingerie requires a girl to be really comfortable with her body. And how do you make something sexual into art? The balance is difficult to grasp. The shoot lasted about an hour and Kenny was patient enough to make this concept a reality. Upon completion I almost felt the need to overcompensate and shoot an outfit with multiple layers hahaha.
When I received the photos, I couldn't figure out if I liked them, and staring at them for hours certainly didn't help. I decided to post them on social media first. Since this is a trashy vs artsy concept project, I wanted to get some opinions.
To my surprise, the first two days I was actually overwhelmed with positive feedback. People told me these photos are unique and fun. Besides comments on my body, a lot of credit were given to the indoor flash effect and Kenny's filter-choosing skill.
Until day three, when a dear friend of mine texted me this: "You look good in these but it's kinda trashy lol..." My heart sank. LMFAO and DANG! There it is. Of course this was expected, but still felt like a tiny sting on my ego. I started aggressively asking around for validation. More than anything, I wanted to convince myself that this is actually some type of art, that I didn't do a shitty job. This went on for a couple of days. I had a party with all kinds of insecurities and self judgements. Upon exhaustion, I finally realize, what do I really have to justify? Who determines what is art and what is not? Haha. Jeez. What a weird thing to worry about.
In the end, these are the things I've learnt:
1. It is really hard to live in this world and not care about what others think of you. But this doesn't mean we can't try.
2. Art is an abstract thing and not always tangible. Everyone has their own taste and that’s totally ok.
So there you have it. My first lingerie blogging experience. Thank you Magali and Timpa for giving me the opportunity. I've learned a great deal about myself. And Maybe one day my childish attempt can eventually blossom into art for more people to appreciate.